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p.s.

e-love, e-hugs, people thinking about you in general make things brighter.

je trouve que je ne sais pas dire que je veux dire. elle a dit que nous ne devons pas lui aider, mais si nous ne lui aidons pas, quelle type d’amies sommes-nous? En ce moment, mais oui, nous ne lui parlons pas, mais nous ne sommes pas d’accord. Porquoi? Because he’s bad news, that’s fucking why. Selfish and ungrateful. Not caring is the worst possible thing.

Quand est-ce que nous serons heureuse encore? Quand est-ce que nous nous ne disuputons pas? L’annee prochaine? Demain? La semaine prochaine?

How soon is now?

(17 hours ago)

blah.

I feel so incomplete and unfulfilled.

*tiny violins*

(17 hours ago)

summer snow ep 11 (final)

I cried my head off. I’m still crying and sniffing and sobbing and I really need to blow my nose.

I take back anything I said about Tsuyoshi being a weirdass actor. It suits him.

(4 days ago)

independence day

so many sheep i quit counting, sleepless and embarrassed about the way that i feel
trying to make mole hills out of mountains, building base camp at the bottom of a really big deal
and did i tell you how i stopped eating?
when you stopped calling me
and i was cramped up shitting rivers for weeks
and pretending that i was finally free

don’t leave me here
i’ve got your back now
you’d better have mine
cause you say the coast is clear
but you say that all the time

(5 days ago)

blue.

Blue, songs are like tattoos - You know I’ve been to sea before,
Crown and anchor me… Or let me sail away.
Hey blue, here is a song for you - Ink on a pin, underneath the skin, an empty space to fill in.
Well there are so many sinking now, you’ve got to keep thinking you can make it through these waves.
Acid, booze and ass. Needles, guns and grass. Lots of laughs, lots of laughs.
Everybody’s saying that hell’s the hippest way to go, well I don’t think so but I’m gonna take a look around it now.
Blue, I love you

Blue, here is a shell for you. Inside you’ll hear a sigh, a foggy lullaby.
There is your song from me

(1 week ago)

still

(1 week ago)

trying to ignore the sadness.

write the top 10 artists from your last.fm page (last 12 months). then write the first song you heard, what song made you love them, and your current favorite song.

01. Arashi
First: Either Wish or Love So Sweet. Stupid HYD bait.
Love: Kitto Daijoubu
Fave now: Kitto Daijoubu, Step and Go, The Bubble

02. KAT-TUN
First: Signal
Love: Signal ♥
Fave now: Signal, un-, Yorokobi no Uta

03. Tori Amos
First: Probably… Oh I don’t know. Marianne.
Love: Every song on Under the Pink.
Fave now: Black Dove, Mother

04. Chara
First: Yasashii Kimochi
Love: Yasashii Kimochi
Fave now: Atashi wa Koko yo, Milk, Yasashii Kimochi, Time Machine

05. Björk
First: Um. It’s Oh So Quiet, I think. Or maybe it was the Possibly Maybe remix on Telegram.
Love: Ummmm. Every song on Vespertine. I’m not good at choosing that kind of thing.
Fave now: Who Is It?, The Anchor Song

06. PJ Harvey
First: Whores Hustle and the Hustlers Whore
Love: Good Fortune, Rid of Me
Fave now: The Darker Days of Me and Him, Man Size Sextet, Rid of Me

07. Kate Bush
First: Running up that Hill
Love: Running up that Hill
Fave now: Wuthering Heights, Cloudbusting

08. Rurutia
First: Itoshigo Yo
Love: Itoshigo Yo
Fave now: Itoshigo Yo, Opus, Hyousa

09. Rasputina
First: Saline the Salt Lake Queen
Love: Saline the Salt Lake Queen, Fire and Ice
Fave now: State Fair, Saline the Salt Lake Queen, If Your Kisses Can’t Hold the Man You Love, Fire and Ice

10. The Smashing Pumpkins
First: Siva
Love: Tonight Tonight, Zero, Bullet with Butterfly Wings
Fave now: Disarm, Stumbleine, Eye

What’s interesting is that most of the songs I first heard, I fell in love with straight away, and still love.

And that I have this disgusting gnawing feeling in my gut.

(1 week ago)

joni.

(1 week ago)